Kelly Ann's Blog

I know it sounds like a metaphor but today has been four weeks since we all lost Andrew…

After hurricane Debbie made her way up the east coast and across the Carolina’s and Virginia and dumped almost three inches of rain here…this afternoon the clouds parted and the sun came out…

You see…I woke this morning with tears…this hasn’t happened first thing in the morning since the first few days after his passing…too much too do and putting that one foot in front of the other thing…but this morning I was extra weepy. I didn’t push through like I have been doing instead I sat, had coffee, had my morning check-ins with my girl posse and read…the drizzle and gray skies matched how I was feeling.

I took a ride to town, had a few errands to run and came home to some paperwork, then another trip to town…the sky opened up while I was out and all I could think was WTF…like I need this today…again my mood was matching the weather.

As I was chatting with a friend I looked out the window and saw that the sky was getting brighter…could the sun really be coming out???

YES…the sun was coming out…I went on the porch, put the furniture back in place, thankful it was dry and sat and listened to music and read…it was then I realized it was Friday…and of the many things Andrew taught me was that Friday’s were made for cocktails…

Let me present the KA Cosmo … you see my man wrote an app that holds all kinds of cocktails…and this one is mine. Andrew taught me the patience to measure each ingredient to perfection and to shake it enough that it got super cold and maybe just a little ice crystal’s to float on top as it is strained.

As I sat on the back porch sipping my drink a sudden sense of peace came over me…you see…the clouds of the storm lifted…and the clouds that have been covering my eyes these last four weeks have floated away.

Today my mourning took a turn…you see…the cracks in my heart from losing Andrew are very slowly being filled with the memories…like this one…of him preparing me the perfect cosmo for a Friday afternoon cocktail.

Andrew taught me well…I understood the assignment and working to move forward.

My love to you…and to him…