Kelly Ann's Blog

I want to thank each and every one of you that has reached out to me…from the texting to the cards, flowers, a pretty throw (no name on that), a memory light, a box of fresh soup and cookies…

This is not an easy road to maneuver…it’s the hardest one I’ve gone down but I will be okay and I’m not saying that just to say it…I will be okay because you see Andrew would not want me to wallow in my grief…he would want me to remember the good life we had together…he would want me to make plans and follow through with them. He would be so mad with me if I didn’t follow through with our plans to either build a new place or find a new home that fit our needs and he would be really super super mad if I didn’t get my pool…one of his main goals in his retirement was to get me a pool.

So I’ll keep myself busy…going over the checklist he made me in case something happened…doing the paperwork that comes with the death of a loved one…waiting…lots of waiting for the above said paperwork.

The boys and kitties keep me mindful of the time of day with their internal food clocks. My girlie-friends check in to make sure I’m eating (I am)…

So I will not wallow…I will look forward as my future looks so different than it did 40,320 minutes ago…and as those minutes keep ticking away…I will not wallow

Thank you again…please know that I am very grateful for your love.

Andrew loved to send me flowers…tulips being my favorite…never lilies or roses…and as you can tell…the were pink…his favorite color for me!